Chosen, My Dear, Departed

I choose you my dear,
I do.
It costs me dearly,
to do.

But still,
though I think it through, too...
The End.

I say, "I do."
I will! for you.
and I thrill
but thou shall not kill...

I am reborn in you.
Anew in the light.
At night we rise.
I dream of the things we would do...

It has been and will always be...
Only one and true.
You.

above and below me.
one and only.

You.

I chose you,
my love.
and sow...
the dark pools
around those who know.

I would do it again.
Feel the pain until my end.
say,
"thy will,
I do."
for you.

wallow.
abide,

swallow
enemy poison swill.
but never kill.
welcomed betrayal of friends.

I went down with a fight.
yet died alone that night.
who did hear my plight?

you never came.
warned
you could
never change.

you do remain.
true to yourself.
above and below me.
always.

one and only.
You.

smile

it's not so bad
I'm never sad
it doesn't hurt at all.
it aches a bit when I do this
so I'll just quit

good to be plain no evil gain
it was a shame
I will not deign
speak ill of you or mention lows

the thoughts that grow
I will not sow, so - not so.
no feelings of pain
nor thoughts of sin
while picturing that wicked kind grin

it only hurts when I smile
perhaps at times when in your grace
stand bare defiled
maybe a sting when I cough or wheeze
a gleeful wince at my expense
out loud, I laugh to please
yes, a little prick
when I cover my mouth to sneeze

at night to bed
songs when in my dead
I sleep maybe first weep
please be assured
only four times the week
take my word that when I wake
I find my soul you did not take
I sob... but promise
these tears are of pure joy!

I rise, I go to play and toy
hide as one in the woods
no better place
my steps retrace
come correct so I can know
what should have been
said to me long ago...

love eternal

I am the sum of all our thoughts

collective in the well.

unconscious

yet with broad fair breadth.

but first, foremost:

above, below,

and through,

beyond-

I am my mother's love eternal,

though she has long since passed.

also, I try to best remain,

stand strong...

though barely felt 

or touched- not heard,

nor cared by other;

mind malaise, body's torn flesh,

crushed bones, heart broke...

I Remain...

before my end,

in good humour,

as my father's daughter.

trine divine

we all can be

when all shall true in sync

align

and to each other's beliefs;

ne'er dare, ne'er deign,

malign.

Remote View

when we’re apart  

we move like one

if I knew, you were leaving us

I’d run to raise the child alone

so your soul would always have a second home

the sun departs as well did you

the foolish queen -  a tear and yet,

a smile still on her face

is put to death over my demise

and your disgrace

what could you do

when these moments in time sway

the next today was in your way

again I wake wishing to fade away

feeling the same as that first day

the sea will part and you will lie still

against the wall of water

I breathe the flood, nurse the sting

the wound where you withdrew

I wish your want your sound our thing,

your amber eyes, I never knew

comfort is becoming - I am, the salt burn

filling my lungs akin

my ocean brethren

lie still in soil or sand

without within that autumnal den

slipping losing so numb my hand

arise anew like I did then

what could you do

when these moments in time sway

the next today was in your way

again I wake wishing to fade away

feeling the same as that first day

deny

you ask too much of me-
the only one denied
and who weeps without choice
while speaks, "I tried."

fabric in the mill
water in the well
truth in wine distill
makes lies simple to tell

guides you sent to protect
whisper sweet in my ear
rules went past neglect
though vowed to keep me near

pressed at me where I did dwell
worlds collide and I'm not circumspect
an oath I swore, who could I tell?
what comes demands divine respect

soon all went to hell,
my spirits did disappear
with held scythe my heart braced
I faced deep valley in shadow, grave fear

now where to go for answers
about how and when the days all became one
everyone decided, let her rot, she won't remember...
but maybe we should have used a gun?

did you take for granted
a mind that speeds fast as light
in day presents a child
at dusk begins to fright

what was it you did wrong
and who did break my mind's seals
where are those who baited me with song
with lyrics masking nondescript deceitful deals?

you took me for a fool
but you could never know
my memory serves, my memories grow
and some things I can not let go.

dove

believe I did, I do
gave up everything for you
choices are not allowed
afraid of being disavowed
losing ranks
try giving thanks
do you remember how

for others you disobey
no one thought they would have to care
how I did sink so unaware
that dark solemn day
so low so low
whose life was not given to grow
you thought I did not know

empty promises of how I would soar
dragged so harsh on the concrete floors
they tried to end me behind barred doors
oh sticks and stones
not a soul to take me home

heard the haunted from the mound
that sound
then when I want to finally drown
you pull me off my knees
get off me please
unbound I have gained and discovered
more ground with simple human things
than you could ever cover
high on your bullet proof wings

lying songs, hymns of him
taunts of sin
lights that dim at night
whispers of hope and fright
liars that speak of dope
mortals that lie awake
to whom you hand rope
recoil and soak
tears and prayers
better sages and soothsayers
we make than you
in our one life
than you do ethereal
fickle fight and bicker
sacred words interior
you wonder why
we are so loved
imperfect doves

a bird in his hand
always always
His love's imperfect dove
we do not need feathers
you can do better
a bird in his hand
always always
His love's imperfect dove
hand us back our leather
a pound a pound of flesh of flesh
we are we are ourselves.

work it out it is later than you may, wink wink
because we think.
doves in hand and your gloves
we know you
we KNOW you. we know you
always take off your gloves.

yes.  I know you...
love.
this dove.
knows.
you
took off
your glove.

   
September 25, 2010

drink

this tree of life
the well I drink
I think I can't
then I cannot think

found the key
with the map
I will not stop
and not turn back
you drink a need
I link the feed
keep running toward
warnings I never heed
maybe it's right
we could be wrong
why do I fight
a good so strong
there is a chance
evidence enough
to where I belong
found the key
with the map
I will not stop
and not turn back
you drink a need
I need to feed

this tree of life
this well I drink
I think I can
then I cannot think