deny

you ask too much of me-
the only one denied
and who weeps without choice
while speaks, "I tried."

fabric in the mill
water in the well
truth in wine distill
makes lies simple to tell

guides you sent to protect
whisper sweet in my ear
rules went past neglect
though vowed to keep me near

pressed at me where I did dwell
worlds collide and I'm not circumspect
an oath I swore, who could I tell?
what comes demands divine respect

soon all went to hell,
my spirits did disappear
with held scythe my heart braced
I faced deep valley in shadow, grave fear

now where to go for answers
about how and when the days all became one
everyone decided, let her rot, she won't remember...
but maybe we should have used a gun?

did you take for granted
a mind that speeds fast as light
in day presents a child
at dusk begins to fright

what was it you did wrong
and who did break my mind's seals
where are those who baited me with song
with lyrics masking nondescript deceitful deals?

you took me for a fool
but you could never know
my memory serves, my memories grow
and some things I can not let go.