contagious

I was fragile still hopeful

you seemed kind and noble    

said you were not flawless   

somehow you made my life lawless   

through all this his image resembled   

I fell short in pieces you dissembled    

accepting this stranger   

did my salvation endanger    

was he created blameless   

only to make me feel nameless    

incurring a debt   

no prince could come to correct    

my life long devotion   

brushed off with a dust of emotion    

quick to judge as a danger   

left to die far away in a manger    

his faith was contagious   

thought my frailty courageous    

enough to steal praise   

kept the grin on my face for days    

love I can not rescind 

even towers give way in the wind   

mind your still water gauges 

kings watch fools play on thrust stages   

in a crowd with no others    

your wings sprung new colours  

books blew open our rib cages   

words silenced, out fell all my pages    

long ago and again was this actress   

not braving the precipice

new born sage under cover     

instead he crawled back to his lover    

       

you won't see, this rhythm, a melody   

stays with me. constantly.      

my words now, not enabled     

disabled all I was once capable...    

       

message delivered you found me disturbing.         

a way to decipher your herds unnerving   

a sudden encasing sending me reeling,      

disgracing this craving you accepted no feeling    

       

commonly assuming for him I was grooming   

my descent impending a sad ending looming     

smiles backed by derision with no more choices
forced my decision to slip though the voices  

          
enlisting the vision as egos glisten

insisting on only one mission they never listen
waiting eyes fading,  though my mind's illuminating,
may this be the last time of this ascending beginning.

August 2011