flame

nobody knows what love I mourn for.
of all the mortals I once adored;
I have not for them, ever, lit this candle before.

no one can know whose love I mourn for.
that bittersweet day they rose above my floor,
this stranger I can not forget since they darkened my door.

a promise to stay with some requirements to name,
a light, my heart, deals broken, but still here is this burning flame;
n'er beckons, no calling, now only burns to convince I'm insane.

all things being equal, small comforts, I know I will remain.
these tricksters are trifling, but are they to blame?
most days I am quiet, but some I am hard to restrain.

nobody knows this love I mourn for.
so many mortals have not seen them before.
for once as a witness... and reality tore.

I wish I could know whose love I mourn for.
gone are the blurred days on my knees begging for mercy on the floor,
so strange I still care for his visage that darkened my door.

October 4, 2010

contagious

I was fragile still hopeful

you seemed kind and noble    

said you were not flawless   

somehow you made my life lawless   

through all this his image resembled   

I fell short in pieces you dissembled    

accepting this stranger   

did my salvation endanger    

was he created blameless   

only to make me feel nameless    

incurring a debt   

no prince could come to correct    

my life long devotion   

brushed off with a dust of emotion    

quick to judge as a danger   

left to die far away in a manger    

his faith was contagious   

thought my frailty courageous    

enough to steal praise   

kept the grin on my face for days    

love I can not rescind 

even towers give way in the wind   

mind your still water gauges 

kings watch fools play on thrust stages   

in a crowd with no others    

your wings sprung new colours  

books blew open our rib cages   

words silenced, out fell all my pages    

long ago and again was this actress   

not braving the precipice

new born sage under cover     

instead he crawled back to his lover    

       

you won't see, this rhythm, a melody   

stays with me. constantly.      

my words now, not enabled     

disabled all I was once capable...    

       

message delivered you found me disturbing.         

a way to decipher your herds unnerving   

a sudden encasing sending me reeling,      

disgracing this craving you accepted no feeling    

       

commonly assuming for him I was grooming   

my descent impending a sad ending looming     

smiles backed by derision with no more choices
forced my decision to slip though the voices  

          
enlisting the vision as egos glisten

insisting on only one mission they never listen
waiting eyes fading,  though my mind's illuminating,
may this be the last time of this ascending beginning.

August 2011

well

I always knew I always know
yet still I can not help but go go go...
assumed such kindness tends to grow
seemed sure of unclear depths below
a leap inside a wishing well
what fool would catch me if I fell
in the water could see was my own spell
no matter now whose truth we are to tell

like

like it don't like it
now that you've tried it
sure of all there is to see
on the screen as you read me

I glance at that grin
will once wearing thin
for the state I am in

flaunt it don't flaunt it
just 'cause you caught it
you sure that I need you
in the way that I please you

that sheepish grin
we will not begin again
in the state I was in

want it don't want it
you broke it I bought it
with a box made of tin
you know not of where I have been